My feelings about make-up

I don't like make-up, except in the context of it being someone's art form. I've seen some girls do gorgeous and creative things with eye make-up; eye shadow and the like. But especially in the South, so many women wear a full face of make-up with the unspoken understanding they look disheveled and unbecoming without it. The face has to be concealed, the hair has to be styled *exactly* so.

It's like you're saying your face isn't pretty enough, your hair isn't good enough. This hair straightening trend is an odd one. It grew out of the 60's, when women wanted to look more natural; to get away from the highly stylized curly hair going on around them. Now curly hair is the more natural alternative to the ever popular flat iron. Eliminate frizz! Get rid of your curl! Straighten it, and then curl it again! It's not curling in any of the good ways, anyway. Come on, all the cool kids are doing it!

Now that I've said that, I am looking for some kind of product that I can use to make my hair shinier without having to straighten it. I'm a bit of a hypocrite because I think my hair looks stunning when it's all shiny and not as frizzy. I've even straightened my hair, and it looks neat, but it's not me. In my search, I went to a local "beauty supply" store. Working there was one large gay man. I thought I might feel a bond between us since I'm different from most girls in the South (no make up), and he's different from many guys (not straight). Unfortunately, all of his comments were soaked in a "oh honey, you just need some good make up pointers!" tone of voice. I told him what I was looking for (something to get rid of frizz and make my hair shiny, but without straightening it) and he kept asking if I used a flat iron. "This stuff is great; it'll take about half of the curl out of your hair..." Well then, that's not what I want, is it? GRRR

My hair is curly and I LIKE it that way!
I have acne, like MANY other people, and I don't feel like hiding it.
Why is it not professional or formal for me to look human?

I'm not a masculine or butch person, and I'm not super girly, but I am feminine. When I was in that store, I felt like an un-girl. Not a man, necessarily, but not a girl. That's dumb. I'm not less of a girl because I don't comply to social norms.

And that's what I think.

mind clutter!

I have a song by Cloud Cult 9 stuck in my head, and all I know of it is, "Everybody here is a cloud. Something -body something evaporated!" So basically none of it. But that half a line is stuck.

I want to lose weight. I lost a good bit when I went back on my adderall. I've gained all of it back after decidedly not taking it for about a year. I have a bike! I decided to start doing crunches every night. I feel the burn, yo. I'm a pansy, so I looked up how to run a mile. I'm thinking seriously about that. I've always really hated running because of activity induced asthma, but maybe if it's at my own pace, I can do it. This TN summer heat is oppressive, though. I'm so tired of being pudgy, even if it's just in a couple of places.

And suddenly I don't have any more words. That's cool because Kevin's playing Star Wars, The Force Unleashed, and it's captivating.

suuuuuushiiiiiii is awesome. So is tofu! I love that stuff. Two people told me that it's gross to eat uncooked, but I love it! So odd, because I normally crave lots of flavor, but I like the subtle flavor of tofu. I just like soybean, methinks.

I think the kids at the daycare are almost completely used to me as a teacher. :p I've been there since mid April. So almost two months! Some of the older (and I work in the one yr old room, remember) kids can say my name, and do. Actually, it's pretty cute the all of the variations of Ali they come up with. "Aah-ee" Aah-yee" Aah-dee" and so on. I like that my name is easy to say. It's a ego boost when the kids can say my name.

Well, I'm tired. Bai for nao.